the world is upside down

we're in the middle of a pandemic. march 15 was the last time i hung out with people outside of my home 'for fun'. this virus has wreaked havoc on the entire world. at first, i thought it would bring people together. now, i think it's only further dividing our country. there is so much i could say about the last forty-four days. however, it just seems overwhelming.

i hope that we never see this type of insanity again in my lifetime.

essential workers having to continue to put themselves at risk to help those who are sick or to continue to make the world spin. non-essential workers either having to pivot with their businesses and stay afloat during this strange time or risk closing their doors forever. arguments over who is what + why. school kids not seeing friends for weeks and weeks on end. getting s

ent home in march where distance learning became the normal. the school year coming to an end without going back to school. students missing out on so many milestones + events. many missing out on making memories. instead, a (hopefully) once in a lifetime world emergency is molding much of their life right now. gas prices being at record lows. toilet paper being the first item to fly off the shelves at record speed + stay out of stock forever. many people either shit a lot or will have a ton of toilet paper to spare when life resumes as normal. a 'stay at home' order from our governor and so many others, to help prevent the spread of the virus. hospitals cancelling anything that is not an emergency to keep beds open for what we are told is coming. hand sanitizer, masks, PPE ... everyone is wearing them, hospitals are short them ... talk about a huge cluster. churches doors may be closed but many are worshiping online. social distancing has become a normal part of daily conversation. stay six feet away + make sure you are washing your hands + not touching your face. the ncaa first cancelled march madness and all of the spring sports. then the nhl + nba + mlb followed. concerts, festivals, shows ... anything where anyone would gather is cancelled. australia, the united states, canada and europe have all closed their boarders. nobody is traveling for leisure. airports are empty. tourism is tanked. people are doing zoom calls + facetiming family to stay in touch. there is talk of conspiracies and questions about where this virus came from (aside from china). there is fear. there is doubt. there is anxiety.

this is literally just the tip of the iceberg on what our world looks like right now. it's as if it was a movie. our world is upside down right now. i am desperate for things to go back to normal, even though i know that we will never again be in the same world we were in months ago. i miss my kids playing with their friends. i miss they get some time away from us at school. i miss seeing my friends. going out to lunch. i miss watching sports on tv with my boys. i want to travel so bad. quarantine will do that to you. i miss baseball. i miss backyard bbq's with family. i miss road trips to the cities to visit friends + family. let's just hope + pray that as our world opens up that this virus doesn't continue to further divide us. i hope that at some point, we can all come together + see the silver linings in the time we have had at home. time with our kids, time making memories + building a stronger bond with them. showing them that despite what is happening in the world around us, we are better together. we can stay calm + positive ... and wait for brighter days ahead. because they will come. they always come.